First day of the Whole 30 was (not) an easy one

We decided to try the Whole 30 cleanse on a bit of a whim. It’s a cleanse that cuts out all dairy, sugar, grains and wheat. Chad has off and on gut issues and I have a serious sugar addiction so we thought why the hell not. and now. I’m so tired! Starting this “cleanse” I knew I needed to kick my sugar habit but didn’t realize it was so bad. I thought about sugar all the time the first day, wondering why exactly I was depriving myself, thinking about adding just a pump of syrup to my coffee, talking to God. On my way home from work I was sure I was going crazy bargaining and obsessing over sugar thinking things like “I wonder if there’s such a thing as dried grapes, that would be a good snack (pause) oh yeah raisins, maybe not.”

But I made it through that first day. (and now the second)

What have I learned so far?

*I am highly addicted to sugar

*I feel physically lighter because I don’t have carbs and grains bogging me down

*Sugar crashes suck

*I eat a lot when I can’t eat carbs

*It’s easy to snack on veggies and fruits with out additives (like dressings)

*Home made mayo is delicious

I did spend more at the grocery store and we are eating more but so far it’s worth it. Here’s what I made on the first day:

chocolate chili

dairy free mayo

mini quiches with kale, bacon and peppers

an amazing salad with dressing made from the mayo



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Easter isn’t Christmas

I was debating putting photos of the boys easter baskets up. The night before and the morning of Easter I browsed through Facebook and saw many “the easter bunny was here” and was convinced that they were confused with Santa Clause. Honestly I just felt sad about it, as a parent and as a christian. Are we now a society that shows how much we love our kids with what we buy them? Growing up my parents added a few gifts here and there in our baskets, I’d say it was 75% candy and 25% gift, maybe a new movie, cd or some make up. I made easter baskets for our boys and struggled to keep it simple. Harper (3) got some things from a Citrus Lane box (toy tools, cups and a book) that I got for free with a code then some dollar items from Target, a bubble gun and some underwear. Willem (9 months) got a new onsie, new shoes and Plum food pouches, puffs and teething crackers. Next year I hope to scale it down even more. My kids, most kids, are not expecting second Christmas on Easter. Easter is a day (as a child) that you stuff as much chocolate in your mouth before putting on the snazziest Sunday dress, complete with gloves, tights and patiently waiting for church to end so you can race all the other kids to find ALL the hard boiled eggs (how many did we hide again?).

So besides the gift craziness of Easter we kept it simple and memorable. This was Harper’s first easter where he knew exactly what was going on. He was meticulous in his egg dying (complete with crayon scribbles) and knew exactly what to look for in the egg hunt. It was magical. This was Willem’s first Easter and his 9 month birthday(?) he loves his baby chicks and was happy just to be held and passed around.

I’m working on having less and living more. When my kids are grown, even as they grow, I hope they look forward to holidays because it’s a time to get together with family and enjoy the day and each other and not look for what they might get. At the same time I know that they will look back and remember the fun they had and not what they received. Next year we will focus on what Easter really is, teaching Harper in particular what it meant when Jesus died for us and showing us how much he loves us and how we should love each other. Can’t take a shiny to bike to heaven anyway.
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You win some, you lose some: Harper and his yoga journey


Disclaimer: Please forgive the grainy, poor iPhone photos. This was very impromptu experience and I was trying to document it the only way I could at the time.

Ever since the discover of my home yoga practice has really blossomed. I do some form daily, even if I don’t do an actual class I will still practice. Harper has seen me practice hundreds of times and knows not only what the mat is for but will roll it out and automatically assume down dog.

Today I started a quick (30 min) stretch session on Yogaglo. Normally my kids either jump on me or ignore me when I start, this time was no different until 5 minutes in when Harper went and got his own mat. First win. So I grab my phone on the desk behind me in order to maybe capture him following the positions. He did. After he ran to get his iPad because he could not find his phone… and I had a phone in my hand at the time. First lose.

IMG_1601 We will just call it Warrior 1 with weight. But then he started following along and wasn’t that bad.IMG_1603IMG_1607 win

I’ve been working on headstands a lot this week. Harper has been working on somersaults. 
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To be Three


Our spring has really been just an extension of winter with a few warm days tossed in just to make ache for summer. Saturday was one of those warm days. As soon as I was home Harper and I took to the outdoors for a walk. Our walk really just consisted of going to the church next door’s lot. We walked, we ran and I watched Harper jump in the biggest puddles he could find, I helped him to the highest point of the rock so he could jump off, and we went and threw rocks into the river (one of use might have peed in the river).

Three has already been a huge year for Harper. His vocabulary that was stunted at two now knows no bounds (luckily it isn’t the clearest fingers crossed he isn’t really saying shit as often as it sounds). Sure he’s whining more and learning his limits but he listens more and understands more and it’s wonderful to watch. He loves having things to do, chores, just yesterday he resisted eating right away to set the entire table for me. He fallows directions, something I wondered at times if he would ever be capable of.

Harper has a huge heart that comes out in almost every thing he does. He has empathy, shows kindness to kids that are sad or hurt, he does hurt others occasionally but will often offer up a hug or a kiss in apology (sometimes he needs coaxing from his parents but will fallow up with compassion all his own). Even at home with his brother he watches over him. As soon as Willem cries he looks around for me and calls for me to help Willem.

I hope this spring and summer holds so many blue skied days of me and my boys exploring our world. Throwing rocks in the creek, digging worms in the dirt, jumping off big rocks.
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He pointed next to him and said "mama, sit"

He pointed next to him and said “mama, sit”

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